New Year Resolution 2010

1st of all, I pretty don't talk much about new year resolution because to me its no point to have a resolution if I don't make it true, or even bother trying to make it happen..

But still, I got 2 resolution, which is the same for almost every year and practically going for it!

1. Study and study to be a doctor. ( My own dreams to be one)
2. Improving myself no matter how it would be. ( Need to improve in attitude wise)

So this is my only to resolution throughout 15 years for able to think for my own goal, not my parents decide or so but my own decision when I was 5.

Thus, I try to make my own resolution on thing I have to accomplish, its a dream for everyone to accomplish it by doing it, and not by talking with no actions! Well perhaps not many really into new year resolution, It's just a hot stuff turn cold easily ( unless person with high enthusiasm its differ for 'em)

For me its true that I had alot of resolution every year, but only 1 still my main resolution and probably the same for everyone, which is to be a person.. So, to put it simply I just focus that suppose to do and keep it til I successfully become one, though last year I had my ups and down, failures and victories, but still, I will move on..

Lately, I manage to control most of my own temper, not fully though... Just to make my mind clear about it, I try to smile eventhough I am boiling with anger, I try to walk away when I am angry, I try to think when I am angry( most probably to control myself from just blurting out nonsense from my mouth),. I work it out somehow.. Need more time to control attitude wise., Plenty of error need to be corrected and best of all, I put alot of effort to change myself since last year I guess, try to be better as always.. ^.^

Well my last resolution, (maybe) I want to be a person who can really spend time with family as my father once said to me, to be a father must study and experience the true potential of becoming a person, basically, study to be a father.. I really miss my family back home in Malaysia, so I have to do what ever it takes for me to go home and be a successful man in my own way.

Today is 31st of December 2009 presents a gift and Tomorrow is 1st of January 2010 presents a mystery..

Few more days to go for holiday!!!!

For past two weeks, I got myself into alot of exams, I sleep less than 3 to 4 hours, yesterday I din't sleep at all, seriously, I might shorten my lifespan pretty quickly now, Everything moves into pace now, I am now couldn't make my own decision sill, on whether I should fight till the very last or go and relax.. Nothing is easy but not that hard, I for now only aim to pass my 1st year eventhough I have to face hardship everyday, making notes, doing hometask so on and forth.

For now I just need to bear til next week until I sit for my exams to get my credit for my final test in second sem.. The days drawing close for me to get back to sunny Malaysia..

I can't wait for some miracle..

Today I played my game well, basketball it is.. Somehow I dream of doing the imposible, but yeah I try it out, of course it is hard to do in reality rather in dream, silly me.. Since that, I overstressed my body and brain of mine, now having headache and body aching, so must do a lil' of practice to make it perfect.
Another thing, its getting chilly in Russia.. I couldn't even sweat with my comforter on.. I have to stand this extreme weather till next year, its like almost 4 months of cold.. Ahhh, to think off, Genting now its like nothing compare to the chillness here..
To make things imposible of imagining, I getting rusty on my Muay Thai.. I couldn't swing for moon kick and the croco.. Need to do something bout it before my body getting rusty..
Oh yeah, I currently playing 2 songs, one is the more than words and another is cant take my eyes off.. Hahaha.. It is hard to play without my teacher to guide me.. But well, practice more if I don't have talent, as saying hardwork override talent.. So learning 2 of 'em, I going take my time. If I got no exams and holidays, I'll definately practice..
Coming here, make me realise of my past self which I couldn't do, So now I make full of my life devoted to anything that I could learn base on time have given to me..

Well Don't give up and never give up.. Never even give thought of it..

My 1st year 1st sem

Lately, I begin to understand how is life in Moscow, to be precise in RSMU, it wasn't easy or simple.. To start with one the 1st day tll now, if in academics wise, its pure mental torture, memorize, read read read, and exam if not collogium( important for credit test and major test and its like another test!!!) so basically test test test.
During form 6 I could sleep for hours long, but now, sometimes 2 or 3 hours period of sleeping. Got eyebags and headache.. Seriously, I think school days are still having leisure time while in univercity is for some serious deal with education.. Really stressful if couldn't pass the test and if manage to get distinction, its pure effort with luck.
Learning medicine degree is not an easy peasy task for undergrads to be one, and to be one must go through to many obstacles.
Lately I couldn't get my feelings right, yeah I had to fall for someone, I dreamt of her for past 2 nights.. and yet I got my exam for that 2 days.. Luckily I manage to pass.. I keep reminding myseif not to give up and never give up especially getting me ready for exams or sports, cause I'll know once if I give up, I'll fall and maybe couldn't take my chance anymore.
Sometimes, I just couldn't predict what's next for me. I just being blinded of stressness. Keep getting headaches..Hope it doesn't affect my health and studies. Yeah, thanks to that, my cough gets back as well having slight fever.. It take me a month to heal and yeah few days to fall sick again..
And about the girl I fall for.. A taiwanese girl, not that pretty and not that hot, but who ask me to make bet and lose the bet without money, yeah yeah in the end, I fall for her.. Though she din't notice that much since I couldn't show any affection for her.. Well, I just keep this myself, I wanna feel more heartache till affection is gone and maintain my cold self.. I seriously afraid I might get hurt again no matter how tough I can be since I am really weak mentality..
2 weeks left til new year holiday.. I hope I could last til the very last of me.. There is nothing but time, what I left now is time itself for me to accelerate..

The 1st years to perform..

Yesterday, it is good to see how people goes in the motion.. game is the name.. it wasn't a good day for me.. I couldn't perform well at my game.. But at least wasn't last for it. This show I still got many place for improvements, though I know I suck but I couldn't give reasons for me to fall as well, I gotta climb from my mistakes and make it as experience.. This part goes to everyone in the 1st years, from my point of view, everyone is good, and definately better at their games, we manage to won in footsal, but not all sports we can make it through, we got last..

This goes that, I've lose my bet to a girl as well.. becoming her slave for a week, a day have past, 6 days to go.. All the joy have driven to exams tomorrow. Kinda sad thinking of it.. I really start to get bored on exams.. All is I wanna to pass and not aiming distinction.

Somehow, the fun past by short, but everyday is laughter itself, I just can't see what is ahead of me.. But just waiting for it to come by..

The beginning of an ending.

Kinda stray and lose awhile.. Honestly I really tired after studying my russian language.. And a sweet succes of getting 5-... Feel good and worthy for trying my best and luck.. Getting my visa done as wele.. A pretty good day.. But a good turn always come a bad ones..

Getting sleep is more important than everything upon good thing but there are always people who comes and interupt my sleep which turn out as nap... And thanks to that I am awake til now and blogging... It really turns my bad side of temper.. And thanks to that I recieve a call from a person saying I like you.. yaya... what ever.. I got no mood in a call as well.. I just can't give any thoughts or feelings at that time...

So I went to Michelle's room.. Quite nice to release stress as in laughter with ching, michelle, saras, & shamni..

So here I am now sitting in front of the laptop, blogging, and trying to get sleepy..

My new times in Russia

Its been 2 months the last I manage to blog.
Coming here its a new experience for me to explore..
What do I get?
Nice cool roommates.. Jack, Lawrence, Subash & Ted
What in the town?
Travel the furthest is Ikea, Mega, Ashan..
What in university?
Messed up education, and messed up timetable, but got a few nice teachers who really understand the way I speak.
What is my current sport?
Basketball, got a good captain Ricky! Now playing as center and training.. Still no good though...
What am I doing at home?
Sleeping, doing last minute hometask, and most likely hibernating like a lazy Russian bear.
Who do I like or having crush now?
No one so far ( honestly I just don't feel wanna have one yet and still not mature to have one still).
What is my results?
Sad to say, I failed my oral in chemistry and need to retake.. ( this is one lecturer who don't understand normal and simple english!) Others, by tough luck got 5 but not all( their marking systems 1&2= fail, 3=pass, 4= good, 5=excelent)
What is the current situation in Russia?
A nothing much going around in Russia, crazy drivers( I really wonder when is the last time they wash their vehicle, honestly, its like coming out from rally), a no-alcohol campaign going around( f---ed them, I have to smuggle heineken in, cheap bastards making me cheap alcohol buyer!!!), and lastly the upcoming university sports( which is next year, need to train properly, no stamina to run and jump the same time!).
What is really important to me?
My pasport so far ( can't afford to lose my identity).
What is my options here?
I got no idea..
What is my plans til Jan?
Struggle all the way..
What is my happiest moment here?
Nothing but tough times. Got nice parties to celebrate but common.. Interesting part is yet to come.
What I cook for dinner?
Chicken with tomato sauce( yet to perfect it), fry rice, and most likely eating curry cook by Subash..
What I am doing here?
No idea.. I come here with doubts and thoughts.. More likely come here to understand what is doctor and what is my new goal besides becoming one as a doctor or as best of interest.. Is this what I really fighting for or just another victim to suffer of a parents dilly dally dream..
What will you do next is things go unexpectedly?
I'll go over again doesn't matter whether I go over things accordingly, seriously what I have now is my time and only time for me to use to improve myself. ( not to mention there is a dude who thinks childishly when he is 1st year medical student who is already 27 years old, he could have find his true calling in childishly thinking, maybe?)
What happen things make me turn back to Malaysia?
First of all, nothing much happen, I can consider Malaysia as at least I have experience here being a student of Rsmu and proud being one, besides having close buddies here and in Malaysia, I just like facing new faces and lifestyle here but not to smoking clowns.. Docs who smokes is common in Russia but at times why couldn't they think for the sake of people around them, at least smoke in prohibited area and not in common area..

The least I could say.. Not bad considering here, if people with the certain results from foundation, matriculation, stpm and so on, but if aiming a better degree best take in Malaysia or in any other Comanwell countries with degree of MBBs, or euro cert aka MD in UK and other Euro countries which have equivalent level as MBBs, MD Rus is not the best amongst all but is used for specialization FRCs and FICs,

Finally, I really tried to make myself to understand my advantages and disadvantages being here and all, I have my hard times, I tried not to be an idiot making people to worry, as well I don't want to be pressured by personal feelings here ( I don't want people to have a crush on me but I like to respect as friends and sad to say I got bad experience with having a girlfriend due inability to understand), I miss MuayThai( Kru, I am really sorry I haven't finish up my training with you and to my friends and family in JakKickboxing, you guys really like a family), I miss my dad, mum and my sis ( Eventhough I hid from appearance but deep down famiy is always family) To dad, sleep more and take care mum who often sick and Simone study well and have more time to rest due exams, if I have a chance, that chance is to move ahead and I wish not to repeat the history,

"I lean my eyes as the eyes of the knowledge and seek the truth of becoming not only the questions of being but is the beings to question the unattend answer and that answer is dream to reality," this is me who take a part of a small yet a leap in life..

Its a long hell...

Lately wasn't my best time at all.. To be honest, it is really one tough month..



The joy is short.. But sadness comes all along..

At first, family issues.. I am really angry at that moment I couldn't do anything but to cry deep down.. But at least, I still manage to take things back as normal.. So my family is peaceful..



Second issue, flight and luggage problems. To begin with, I am starting to feel annoyed when people around me asking,



"Hey Anthony, When are you leaving?"



I kinda tired asking the same damn question to my agent and damn annoyed answering back to everyone.. The answer is No!!!



I haven't get my ticket and I got plenty of things to do still. I need to buy some items such as lip balms and bed sheets with pillow case!!! All my clothes are practically done with..



Third issue, lately I quickly burst in anger!

Totally shit! I just sometimes easily get blood boil.. At times, I clench my fist, and always giving the thought of punching annoying shithead!! But never happen.. Somehow manage to cooldown and walkoff..



Fourth issue, I couldn't leave my trainings.. I like the studio and it is always my second home.. It feels so nice hitting the mitts and bags.. And people there are really nice.. Just couldn't give thought leaving there and back every semester break.. Kinda pathetic..



Fifth issue, Annoying relatives..

Who the hell are you bossing my life?? I tell my problems and ask for help and what shit you do?? Making bigger problems.. Causing me having more time to make my family peaceful.. Another thing.. Stop saying I am arrogant and bossing in my life.. I am practically answering your lousy question like asking about Muay Thai.. But stop asking silly shit like in the movies..

If really interested just get yourself to the studio.. They welcome you to try.. And another thing, if you make joke, please make sure it is understandable and forcing me to laugh with you dumbass.. If you don't like me, just say straight to my face. There is no need to involve my mother as middle person..



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The good things..



Not much, too busy with the bad ones.. But I manage to get myself a good pair off shoes..



Nike Lunarglide.. Yeap! Eventhough the price are to crazy for that pair but at least it is good on my feet.. Mine was the black and orange.. Just bought it last week.. It is light and comfy..

This makes my grand total of Rm8210( include my winter selections, books, my lab coat, luggage and some other items)



Huge amount eh!! But that is the fact.. Since I bought some books.. Well better start doing some reading and get a brief idea how be a doctor.. Kinda lame though..

I wanna go to rest..

Superb Sunway

One gloomy looking sky.. And that makes a perfect day( Except noon = very hot)

Well it started out by Bowie and Zhaf( whom I know on the same day)..

So, get out from home on one dark cloudy skies on Wednesday morning.. All packed and roll out..

So, upon reaching Sunway Piramid, make a u-turn back to Taylor and meet up at the all time restaurant..... Mamak restaurant.. Well this is Malaysian's best blooming restaurant.. Back to the event!

So, I drove and park my car, get down, a lil stretch and walk towards the mamak restaurant..

Woah! 2 guys 2 gals.. So with a lil introduction amongst ourselves.. So Who Do I Know Off?

Jeremiah aka Jeremy( He make me feel interested at Demigod)

Cheryl.. fair looking girls amongst us..

Zhaf the main man behind the trip event..

Bowie.. Getting interested pretty quick..

So 4 of 'em including me start the chatter and goes with funny IQ questions.. Well from brains to joke.. Bowie IQ test the best going with the pau on 200 IQ points.. Wow.... Winner.. Zhaf( High nose on that question)

Then to the Sunway Piramid.. As we reach there... Lagoon is closed and going for a walk in Piramid.. Nothing much to see except Jeremy tried the moonwalk on the escalator.. Went to pet shop and guitar lounge..( To be honest the handmake guitar had overwhelmed price and none of 'em below 3000 bucks..)

So, its closing to 11, take a quick walk back to Lagoon and going to the main entrance to pay up..

By the way.. WE DID WENT TO THE BIKIKI SHOP BEFOREHAND!!!

So we wear a power ranger wrist watch.. 10 bucks as deposit..

Time to get in the area..

Go to the toilet and get ourselves change.. Kinda windy at this time.. Take pictures at the Lazy tiger den and continue walking down to water park to dump our bags in the locker..

So our 1st ride is the ship... AAAAAHHHHHHHHH... Before we getting into the ship.. Zhaf see the measurements on Cheryl.. What a lucky girl indeed.. So this ship.. Any perculiar things?

YES IT DO HAVE ONE DAMN HELLISH SAFETY FEATURE..

THE BALL AND BOOB CRUSHER... It hurts everyone vital part( No idea on Jeremy but Zhaf felt relax.. Ohh the name came from Bowie so I adapted it.. HEHEHE)

Second ride, the ????

OK the name is quite intimidating but I forgot it but who cares.. It is fast, forcefull, and zero gravity.. The only thing you can see is.. Whatever you see around you..

3rd ride.. The potty mayhem.. I seriously recomend.. please turn the wheel as fast as you can.. So whos the dead man.. Zhaf.. He went all down to the bench and drop dead.. We turn the pot like the most fastest 360 degree round till everyone looked at us( they might be thinking how old is this guys????) What I know is Jeremy is the only one spinning th potty and zhaf felt like puking... Bowie and cheryl? Tipsy..

4th ride.. YEEHA.. The city of the lost gold???

Well, in this case.. there is one dude tried to flirt Bowie.. Who gives shit about him.. So went on..

It is so damn slow at the start to top of th peak.. So we go DOWN AND FAST.. This is good..

5th ride.. To the wet park.. the bull train..

It is the same as the 4th one but safer and slower..

6th.. The snake ride..

This is very good.. 3 people or 2 in this case 2 gals 3 guys.. and of course I am the behind one..

It started as in a boat with rubber sides and goes up and up and up.. Followed by splash in the water below for twice..

7th The 90 degree slide???

Well Jeremy sits alone on the boat.. So pair of gals and boys.. As we speak, I and Zhaf goes down the fastest and flying while the gals.. left behind..

8th ride The weirdo roundy shaped tyre..

It is more like upstream to downstreamkinda ride.. Quite bumpy..

After all the rides done, water park is next..

we go alot of ride actually.. and this time slide.. Carpet slide.. I don't want to comment in this due Zhaf is the reigning champ...

Then we go to the surf side.. Get wet wet and wet.. The sprinkles are damn nice.. So in this case.. Truth or dare game... So everyones truth bla bla bla.. And come the dare.. Bowie.. hmmm she gave up even before we ask her.. so punishment dip her head in the pool for 20 counts.. Next in the que.... Cheryl.. Dance with the float companied by a song Surfing USA.. 3rd man... Zhaf the macho dude... Well such leisurely say hi to a girl... fine... Lastly me... So go pick one random white dude.. So, I get up and go towards the guy and say hi.. but in return I ask them would they mind saying hi to my friends that interested at him... hehehehe..

So, go for the smaller pool.. for kiddies.. But no one cares... So Dip in... Then we go round in circles until there is one part the red indians giving middle finger sign.. No F***ing... lol

Then opt for the last 2 ride and carpet over and over again..

So, change and get going for dinner...

Dine at the buffet restaurant.. thats where Jeremy tells bout Demigod and camwhoring on yeah and hell yeah..

So lastly, we go back, laid back and enjoy.. Tired but fun! @.@!!!

It is foolhardy..

Well well well, how should I begin with. A day without sleep after taking booze and dance in quattro, Ave K.. Very amazed at myself how the heck I am still awake.. I took black label pure for 4 cups and additional 9 and above as mix.. The feeling of drinking it, sucks, but I was in sober so who basically cares.. And the funny thing is I blog this while I am flimsy still.. My minds is here and not allowing me to sleep... I wonder what is wrong with my head.. Normally I wanna get drunk to forget pains and and my own silly pathetic life..

Somehow, today I don't feel much but it will not be my last to going to clubs and having good time with friends whom I know off.. Kinda nice making friends with the bouncers.. The show me the place and I get to talk with 'em personally on which liquor to get in good offers in a night only..

Got some friends who loves going clubs and I quite forgetful of their names and I only remember Dante and Nicholas.. The beat is too loud until I can't even hear their names properly.. Well not the both of 'em only. There were Michelle, her friends and her sister Marg along with her friend and cousins.. To sum it all.. A big group..(I guess so)Going to club knowing them a short while is nice but there are some complications, I know them just a lil / none... Another thing is the place is boring if there is no one to company along.. Basically I am sobering alone there.. Oh ya there is a weird yellowish drink which tastes funny, it is more like a mixture of vodka and some tangerine and something else( no idea what it is) and it costs freaking 20 bucks.. And 2 different girls giving to me..(Can't resist temptation from them until one of them gives up my another 20 bucks is saved).

There is another thing happen to me.. I got my feet step by countless people ( my bad for wearing flip flops) From waitress to guys to girls to man to lady.. Even it happen outside where I got my foot stumble by a drunkard... Sheesh.. Everytime I go to the loo, I have to que for it and when I got there , only 3 stand to pee.. And the sink fill with vomits...

After all the joys, I have to drive home alone.. That time, I feel light headed eventhough I could walk properly but still flimsy all the way to my car.. I walk the stairs and get rid of my flimsiness but putting some sweat and put my brain in state of order.. It is hard to do so and seriously I had the feeling my trainings is not enough..

So drove to 7 11 to get some mineral water and rest awhile by driving from KL to my house and go to Rawang to get my important stuff where I hid it a long time and go back to the same road I took from KL all the way to Cheras... Stop by aside and walking around in the dark( Well I sort of afraid abit but I really need to stroll to get some air)

Walking down the same road as before, I keep remembering the events where my car stuck in the workshop.. The road to Neway and outside Leisure mall.. Kinda miss the old times and I tried hard to forget but everything seems like yesterday..I shed the same tears at the same place as I still remember the same spot and the same actions on that unfateful day.. There are no one to share my pains( my sis is an exceptional and some names I refrain to say) I kept everything to myself and couln't tell it out why and why and why is this happening to me to anyone..

There are few I could trust but I couldn't tell or convey it to them. I have to fake my smiles like there is nothing to be happy about, faking most of the joy I had as if they were nothing and play along with childish smiles.. I am happy though since I manage to put some real smiles to anyone and start to change bit by bit. I threw my old self and giving myself my own forgiveness and take something new..

There are people become my role model, my master (Kru), my sis( kinda good to have a sis of mine), Han, Ken, Ca-ryn, Nizam, my own dad, some of my friends as well..My life is nothing but to regret on my misdoings and my ill behaviour. Now I wanna take back what suppose belong to me even the person whom I care the most and all my lost. It sounds impossible to me for the time being but I try to get back on my own will..

Crapy week pt 2

There was nothing much I can say during this epic.. Devastated by the hospital management and the slacking workers there.. But somehow there is nothing much to write about so to the main issue.. Along the bedridden sis there always time I feel like there is nothing much I can do.. No internet which can make me dull and there is nothing much on the television. I can become like an idiot just by staying a day there.. eventhough I never come to realise that this hospital have the most equipment and advancement, but never priortise the importance of a patient beside sleeping and rest like a fool there.. The nurse is in the canteen most of the time. But anyways this is much I can tell about this particular lame hospital I ever been through.

Pj>Pangkor

Well first of all.. It is a bad day... My dad is sick.. At 8 am I have to travel all the way to pj.. Fetch him and go all the way to jalan ipoh to see a doctor whose name is kok kai yan.. So upon admission.. the doctor can tell what sickness my dad have by.. using his stetoscope for not even a sec long on my dad's chest..

Well after the check up. Take the medicines and go back home.. Then rushing to pack my stuff for going to Pangkor...

So I drove all the way to pj again... To take my Phase 1 exams.. quite nervous and depressed cause I forget 2 bring my most important stuff.. My undies and my shampoo... Pretty darn lame.. So, well Lijean come and fetch me... Her so called new licence.. Really making me puke at the back though I talk much.. But as long I seat behind, somehow I can get drowsy.. Her sudden break and sudden accelerate.. Then somemore don't give a damn attitude of driving.. I really don't feel safe.. I started to miss my car at that moment.. So she drove to her friends house.. Well nothing much to crap over there since she is craving for rendang... I at that time thinking about my dad...

Well she couldn't have her rendang due the time is closing to 7.. We head off to pj.. One pretty darn lame thing happen during her driving... She can't fill petrol... She can't even know how to open the lid and to put the nozzle in.. Okay.... I don't care what is she trying to crap having her mum to fill up instead of her... But still Can't You Pump It By Yourself?..

Well back to the exams.. As I reached there.. I get a new boxer and get changed fast since I am late for it... Learn the Clay wrap, Boran 1 and Boran 2.. Tested on the wrap.. Funny things happen when master said something...

Master: How come you don't know to wrap.. dating with one of my instructor..
Jun Han: ..... (in silent)

Back to the wrapping session.. Marcus was testing us... So most of us pass it...

So now the real thing... Punches like mad man till 9 plus... But alot of rest interval in between.. After that went down to get some drinks... And get back up for kicking session.. So many crocos and knees.. 100 croco and 50 knees.. I felt damn tiring but who give the heck out of it.. So I and Justin just go all out.. kick even before Han give the go signal.. So after that everyone passes.. Very happy for it..

So go down back to Lijean car.. She drove all the way to burger king.. Switch car.. I go with Jun Han as the driver.. Somehow At least I feel safe eventhough she drive fast.. I still can calculate how many times Lijean overtake us.. Not even a left right signal... If I was the driver... I'll think

"Nowadays so many accident due to many 'ah po' drivers.. and if I drive fast I couldnt have accident on her tail... "

Well I have no comment on the new drivers since I have my own accident and pretty bad ones which nearly cause death upon the road users due to my ignorant and ego...

Well back to the topic.. Go to Lijean house fetch her and go all the way to JunHan house.... OMG.... The house is like a castle.... Much supreme than mine.... Greet her parents and take our supper.. bath.. and talking in Junhan room.. So as I wanna go to bed.. The crazy Lijean wanna play Nitendo Wii... Feeling so sleepy and restless but this crazy girl just have to make people doesn't want to sleep.. In the end, she sleep so damn good.. I can't even shut my brain off.. To much of disturbance outside... Cars ,truck , motocycles and dogs... So much noise until I can't sleep..so damn annoying..

5.30 am.. I get up since there is an idiot with the car with the engines on.. trying to make fuss outside.. I so damn pissed at that time.. For the record, I don't want to overnight at someone house if there is inconsiderate people for not making me sleep.. I feel going back at my house and get my sleep since there are less inconsiderate people in my housing area.. But well my temper is quite okay on that saturday.. Normally I'll go moody and angry pretty quickly..

So go down to pj and get my undies from my parents... and drove back to subang at 7 plus.. I had my morning drink which is milk.. So a little talk from kru to drivers and some words to us... So we start driving at almost 8 am if I am right.. And drive all the way to pelabuhan Lumut for almost 4 hours.. During that journey, I took some pictures of the paddy field and love pics from ken and junhan.. As well some nap.. And there is always a pig who doesn't buckle up and sleep on my lap.. causing cramps on my left leg for keeping stationary there.. I always gave thought why this person doesnt care her safety on her own.. so clumsy at all times.. sometimes words don't meet the brains until she get knock out of it..

There is quite some stops for rest and go to the loo... Well we gather at a place and hear the story of three pigs from the kru.. joke around... And I saw there is a kid who keep kicking the kitten.. Such cruel boy... Not to mention the lame Lijean who keep ewww and hate kittens and dogs... I never seen such fear to furry animals such as lijean.. Giving so much excuses for hating the dogs to lick her.. hate the creepy cats eyes.. I was like wondering even small kid can kick the cat cruelly and an animal fear girl.. Couldn't help what is keeping their mind..

Well back to the journey, Upon reaching the place, get to the car park and go to the stall for the famous cendol drink.. Very tasty on the hot day basis... Get to the ferry and enjoy the hot winds..

So, reach the Pangkor Jetty for the second time.. Then check in the hotel.. I go take my sleep on the bed there before training.. At 3 plus.. Han, Ck, Boon, Justin and me going to walk to the beach.. Followed by Ken and Junhan.. It was a damn hot day...So chatter at the beachside..

While waiting for the others to come.. we walk back.. well before that ken and junhan walk back 1st.. So we saw kru coming and others as well.. So we head back to the beach and learn some leg massage.. It was a massacre for me to massage CK.. My fingers nearly out of strength for massaging his leg.. And when he massage mine... I felt pain and agony..Well.. doesn't matter as we go dip in the salt water.. After that we learn the limb destruction method.. and jump back to the sea again.. Then we go back to the hotel and get bath.. So while waiting for them, I get myself a tasty burger.. with curry powder.. Rm4 for double special.. So I go for it, some steam corns and a drink.. So I am eating them at the balcony while waiting for my turn to bath.

So after bathing, go down to have dinner on the grilled fish.. after that go for my own things.. which is finding some clothes to buy for my sis.. Then get myself beer to drink and go back to the room.. Play cards with my roommates and watch tv.. Go down again for supper and back to the beach and enjoying there...

So back to the room, I head back with CK and I went to sleep since I was tired for the whole day.. Justin and Boon drop dead on the bed.. And then me, followed by Han and Ck..

Next morning.. I woke up late.. Clean myself and get down for breakfast.. and hit the beach.. This time using sarong to protect ownself.. go to the sea to swim and then get onto the banana boat.. It was so much fun.. After that went kayaking with Lijean, Ken and Junhan..

So back to the hotel, bathe and pack to checkout and go to the hall.. Suddenly Lijean came down asking the necklace she gave to Marcus, Dzianti was blur at that moment.. So everyone go back the same spot to find the necklace.. I was with Justin.. Han stopped by to get himself a drink and the couples just walking slowly..

So as I reached there. I saw a man digging for the necklace and guess What Marcus found it and the necklace back to the owner..

Back to the hotel.. taxy is there.. go to the jetty and farewell to pangkor..

A long the crappy week.. Part 1

Bedridden, tired and stomach aching award goes to my sis.. Hail appendix.. Jackpot hitter and only after eating curry... (sigh).... Admitted to ward at 4 but I and my dad were there since afternoon 12... I and my dad were pissed at the management of Assunta hospital.. Totally what the hell are you women doing? We need to go to the bank to open account for my further studies and yeah what we get are waiting like mad people cursing the damn work etiques. In the end, no bank and no account.. It is already 5 since 12 we are there.. Not even a chance to withdraw cash.

Not only that I am cursing that hospital, I even curse the management.. Can't even do appropiate details.. My dad like thinking which room to put my sis in.. At first say 30 minutes put in 4 bedded room and that is when the report out saying my sis just done for the ultrasound scan.. But the truth is, she need to go to x-ray... Stupid idoits.. Why don't you tell us earlier, At least we still can put her in 1st class..

At that time she was warded and we going out for having our afternoon lunch since in the morning not even a grain of rice enter our digestion.. When we were out, the hospital call in.. Saying we need to go to sign for the anesthetic... I was like in damn hot temper.. After calls out, I was like "damn you 'BITCH' ".. Can't you tell earlier before we go eat! When my dad enter back to the car, I told him that we need to go back to hospital.. And he was even more pissed than me.. He say "what the hell... They should've tell me this!!!!" And so we turn back and rush to the hospital to sign..

Sigh, And as we are going to the canteen.. Again another call... Saying we need to go to operation theatere (OT is the another name).. WE JUST ORDERED OUR FOOD AND WE GOING DOWN BACK AGAIN?????? I really feel damn sad.. If I were the doctor there I really blast the hellhole out of them.. Ok there we go.. Went to OT and we wait another 30 minutes just to sign the anesthetic and in the end the doctor came and did the surgery on her..

Finally, to the canteen..(to be continued for part 2)...

(point of view)
For a week I couldn't stop my eating habits no exercise and even not enough sleep.. My oh my... I waste lots and lots of my money even my parents give me cash is not enough for myself.. Darn broke and darn to travelling... Toll is one issue and the petrol is another issue plus my hungry appetite even worst I am sleepy which add my hunger..

The week of hell is truely madness... I had to bring my parents clothes for them to change after working hours.. Yet I forget to bring their sandals.. Another scolding from my mum... I am at fault for not remembering but no need to scold like there are no tomorrow..

Unplanned days..

There you go.. KKBEAR & LAYHOON...
THAT'S ME & LIJEAN..
Well the beautiful night scene at Sunway.. Think so..
In the karaoke session...
The stress killers scream and full with emotions.. Blek!!!



Lately my live turns 360 clockwise and 360 anti-clockwise.. There are many reasons to it.. First, my kick boxing time went haywire due to my puppy injuries need to be taken care off and my sis tuition timing a 'lil off.. What a busy week!!!

But lately there are some nice events going around.. First the karaoke session with HKL (Dugong MIA)..

Kinda good when I am out with them.. Very funny and off charts..

At noon about 2pm, I drove to fetch layhoon 1st & kkbear at ktm central... And what do you know.. KKBEAR IS CLUELESS WHERE HE IS!!!!!! I like wanna strangle him for walking up and down where my car is just opposite his direction... But in the end he found my car..

Well to the road on the way to lijean's house, alot of chatter in the car saying hungry and all but a nice journey except a 'lil traffic jam in midpoint at federal highway..

Minutes later before reaching lijean's house, she called up and taking bath.. So kkbear put a suggestion that lijean cant wear a skirt.. So I do agree with him cause the imagination is so wrong with she wearing skirt.. But layhoon keep saying she thinks lijean wearing skirt.. I like laughing til my stomach grumble for food.. Anyway upon reaching her house.. Our guess was right where she wears a short..(expected) So continue driving to Sunway piramid, find a carpark and go to AMP SQUARE.. The karaoke lounge.. Quite nice.. The room was kinda small but just nice for 4 people.. So the singing mayhem goes on and on from 3 to 6.. I kinda lose my voice shouting for linkin park song and simple plan.. Then after that we go for a movie which name Coming Soon.. Kinda creepy but not that scary.. The funniest of all.. I was shocked but not the movie but lijean who kept pulling my left arm and layhoon's.. Both of them like screaming ah ah AHHHHH!!!! I thought I was scared but I was scared by them two.. which makes me a wuss too... Sad!!!

Before the movie we went to a jap ramen shop.. I always make the 1st call and my food comes the 1st.. And theirs was the bento set and mine is the ramen.. So after the turn of events, I sent lijean home 1st follow by kkbear.. and later is layhoon at 1 Station in metroprima.. I was like thinking "OMG"... I am alone in the dark driving home road is empty especially road going to the mall which had no lamps till now.. Everytime I have to pass that road to reach home after my kick boxing and now after my driving duties.. I have no more guts to face the rear mirror cause I thought I saw one passanger sitting at my back.. As I stumbled again, it seems no more from there.. I quickly drive home and took my quick bath.. Go to sleep... The next day, I seem to be back to normal..

Till next turn of events..

A month after STPM results.

Hmm lazying at home is the main thing here.. After that fateful day, I couldn't walk the way as I experience before..

Now, doodle with my laptop, sit ups in my room, eat(common I guess), sleep(common as well), toilet business( ?? common??), and got no idea what I need to do.

On the other hand, I got Kick boxing phase 1 exams coming in June, then thinking of going to work with my parents( which likely happen 1%), or going outside with my sister.

The another mission for me is to get the jigsaw puzzle which fuss me out due out of stock and need to wait about a week?? Taking up my guitar lessons soon and buying myself a snooker cue which cost me about Rm370+/-.

Grrr!!! The most unfortunate event that happen to me is my racket snaps its tension and got a dirty grip... Ugh I am so broke this time..

But, kinda enjoy this moment where I can got most of my freedom till I get my offer letter from Russia.. Hope I manage to get it.. Though my parents kinda hating me leaving them especially from my mum due of cold( Actually she gives so many reason for me to give up going to Russia) Another fact that they don't like me going there because in Russia they beat up some people who they don't feel comfortable with ( It happens in most of the major and developing countries).

I hope I manage to pass my phase one exams to counter this problems..

Now I realise how much I'll lose and how much I gain during this holidays. Things that I lose is my own mistakes in my own past and things I gain is getting friends to accompany me during times of hardship and some live experience.. Knowlegde is vast and varies and it doesn't compromise readable materials but living to experience is the most valueble knowlegde.

It seems most of my life seeing new criteria and adapt it to myself..
Well til next time.. hehe >O

Long term???

Oh no, sigh, and ouch!!!!! Why of all things I grasped for breath and fall dead onto the ground.. Yeah, it was kick boxing.. Very tiresome.. I was like a dead fish without water, and all I have to blame is my own asthma, which cause my breathing problems and most of all my lungs can't expand properly..

So to comprehend my own problems, there are many things I should do before and after trainings..

Thus I come up with new solution which is,

1. More exercise to increase the duration or expansion of my own lungs.
2. Emphasize on more rest like 10 hours (minimum 7 hours)
3. Swimming ( for my own sake that gives fact I can't swim very well)
4. My own diet ( I tend to eat alot and lots)
5. Focus everytime when I am working out
6. Lastly, mentality power which breaks the limit possibility of my own body..

Next step of giving out more durability and stamina of my own body,

1. Do slow push ups.
2. Do slow sit ups
3. biceps and triceps training is to hold longer than rather up and down.
4. Leg extension and full stretch.
5. Pilates
6. Cool down. ( very important before and after of any rigorous exercises )

So much to do for my own hell.. And here is some pics of me in the studio in Sunway,

Good or bad??

Well first of all, I got my result at 12.30 on last wednesday.. Very very very depressing as I am trying to open the piece of letter at hand.. The moment of truth had risen from hell's deep, At my first glimspe I saw my result printed in blue..thank god wasn't red.. Then to my points, it was one A 3B's.. I was so happy at dat moment. I thought I gonna flunk and had to take my second option. So I went to my agen's office and settle my route to russia.. He was also shocked that I am able to get 3.0 the exact figure.. And so the last thing I need to prepare is my passport to Russia and my plans have taken its course..I shall not waste my second chance that my dad give to me..

Oh since the aftermath of my result, many things going to recourse itself and of all is my own time to do things that I wanna do.. As such rearrange my schedule and after all I am not going to my college anymore so I can spend more time one my Muay Thai, chill with my friends and most of all is to learn to adapt new lifestyle as a preparation to Russia..

Perhaps, there are few things I couldn't forget which is the regrets that I face up till now and that is going to remind me not to stray to that path anymore.. I must keep my promise to someone who pass away long time ago and to my parents..

Eventhough I couldn't make somethings right but I am experiencing things beyond my capability of knowing it.. Life is so wild yet incomplete..

Learning??

Hmm it is very disturbing fact that what I am to do when there aren't anything to do?
Firstly what I am trying to imply is whether the fact I am taking kick boxing classes is good or not?
Well I kinda love this class and by the way it is almost a month that I am learning Muay Thai or commonly known as kick boxing in Thai..
Ok! I can say it is fun and really a good stress reliever.. As everytime when I travel to the place is in traffic mayhem but when doing the learning process, it is seriously good.. My stress just go off and somehow getting in the mood to learn new moves.. My first trial class learning steps and pull some punches.. Of course at first I am not used to move in a flow but as thing goes I manage to use full swing at my cross jabs, uppercuts, hooks and some combos as class keep going on.. Then I learn the the knee.. lead and rear kicks to force the person back.. Kinda hard though.. Then next is the lead and rear knee, and lastly the croco.. All these are one heck of a day.. And then combos the following day.. Every lessons are addicting..

Secondly, my life.. I wonder what is my next move when I am trying to improve myself as keep skipping classes.. 5 times only in 2 months.. ( not wise though)! haha nevermind that but seriously I wanna strive to be the best in my college..

Third knowing new guys in my course.. Let me tell you it is very hard to get friends there as most of them are rotten like drinking and smoking as well.. So it is really hard to know who is good and who isn't.. But not to my close friends like Naveen, since he knows what to do when he smokes and din't blow to my direction.. My best pal hahaha.. I really got no idea why my course mates smokes since they have no reason of smoking also.. Cool??? Hahaha not my case at all..

Lastly for past few days I keep on thinking that is that hard to give in something?? Like putting in a new leaf? I am doing so like planning what to do next and which must be in priority.. But somehow things doesn't go in my favour and so I still wanna bear things in mind that I must be improving not degrading or rot like street clowns who don't even know what is their plans..

Anyways Suman please keep blogging as I'll try to be more of critism on government of our country.. haha..

Cool!!!

Wow.. I got my test papers results!!

Guess what...

Most of the papers I dint get my marks and keep hidden from me!!!!!

Depressed ==!!!!

But

I got my physics 79%
I got my Chemistry 94%
and so far two papers only!!!! What the heck!!

Where's the others..

So frigging sad.. But I still will work hard to achieve 100% each paper.. Since my chem and physics can reach above 70%, so I will try go pass the limit barrier and be the top in my college and show that even normal people like me can soar to be the best.. But still need to work hard on my presentation!! I can't explain things but I can write and this is unacceptable for me.. Damn humiliating..

Oh ya.. I make quite number of friends there.. Aaron, Wilson, Prakash, Sean, Irzy, Ajib, King kong ( I forget his name), Jay, Murvin, Satish, Cornelius Anthony (brother from another mother) and some others that I got no idea their names is..

Then I got elected as a class representative.. Then got trouble all times in the class and lecturers like promoting me in the class by calling my name.. Somehow girls are starting to study hard like wanna take me out.. Ah before I forget, I know this girl whos name is Keily Wong.. Somehow she is the only chinese in my class.. but she is not that pretty( forgive me if this hurt but in my eyes somehow making me to picky) sad case..

While I was in starbucks getting myself a frap green tea.. She comes to me and ask me to help her.. OK weird!! So she ask me to tell the lecturer that she couldnt attend to his class and take his notes.. Eh paperboy?? And I forget to ask her number.. Sheesh!!! But nevermind who cares.. Haha.. Then I gave the paper the following day. But somehow I am getting attracted to help her.. Ugh whats wrong with me.. @.@!!!

Then another funny thing happen.. I got myself in a funny situation. Moral class.. So basically no one cares the moral class.. But this teacher is not entirely strict and he is nice.. So he give me a good comment

"Waa nampak macam gangster, rambut merah, banyak piercings tapi kelakuan baik.. Keep this up!" Said by him!!

Prakash heard that and laugh till his tears roll.. I like WHAT??????????
Oh man..Somehow things must make me laugh.. Not bad eh..

Hmm there's more, I become chemistry puppet for some demonstration and ask me to check people's mistake on the board.. O.O?
Huh? ME??? And answer some other questions??? Summarise???
To add more laugh juice.. My friends pull gay pranking.. They so gonna die.. Haha joking..
But somehow I am getting the attention and of course not good for the girls since they like study damn hard in front of me and they whisper that I wouldnt last long as the top student.. Geez give me a break already..

Now Iam looking forward to study, study and study,
Getting to class since every class is good except for arabic lecturers.. The pink panther slangs.. Ish!

Anyway till here only. I'll try to update if I have a time.

This is to my dear friend and as close as a brother, David.. Good luck study in Australia.. All the best in 3 years and I 'll visit you when I go to Russia study..

Klcc + One Utama

Yesterday, Hmmm??? what happen? I remember I was going out with Josiah, his sis and cousin sis.. So I leaving my house bout 9 something and get to oil station and to Josiah Ching house (aka jojo ching) So I reach late, haha still in Chinese New Year mood but rather sleepy.. Well nevermind.. Today I was somehow suprised by the cousin of his.. Australian.. At 1st I couldnt catch what was she saying but get used after awhile.. Anyways I drove to Kepong Sentral for going to Klcc with train.. Then we reach Klcc bout 30 minutes or less.. Who cares the time.. haha.. So we at suppose to meet an Englishman by the name Andrew. Yeah but jojo cousin says he is boring!
Jess( jojo sis) was looking for the loo .. Guess what happen? the loo charge us 2 bucks just for pee? Jojo ching say just head for another.. Leave the bloody toilet and head for next..

Done!! After toilet, ok Andrew you're in play.. But I am hearing Holly keep saying he is not a guy, mummy's boy this and that.. Ok ok .. At 1st I think he is cool but somehow he gives me the signs he is one..

Ok the movie.. with respect for @#!$$#@#@ such God love jojo and the rest of us argue on movies!!!!! Grrrr.. Underworld NO!! due unholy jugdement for jojo.. then No again on Bride wars and in the end Inkheart.. I am falling asleep if it is not for the laughing scene.. Boring cause less action and all talks.. Rather dissappointed! Nevermind..

But before the movie, we went to Kino bookstore, so fantastic..Anyways I am not in love of books since it is the new year mood.. Ok I went to the sports shop.. Cool and afordable .. Then follow Jess and Holly for their toys'r us to get some toy flowers and some cubes.. Eat at B.king.

Then go to sg wang for food after movies.. talk lots lots of thing and back home..

Day 2, One Utama..

It was fantastic.. to me of course.. Well same group but excluding Andrew and include my sis..
Well we go to eat at TgI for brunch.. then loitering around.. Josiah went for books.. the girls go for shop a holic before the movie Bride wars at 1.45..

So me.. I go to look for baseball and footsal field.. And go for rock climbing.. But not enouge time since I decide to play pool 1st before rock climbing..

then head for the movie.. Hmm good.. but jojo nearly sleep.. As for me, nice but boring as well.. Nevermind.. After the movie, I go to play at arcade.. Rambo!! VERY DAMN GOOD!!!! I love it.. Then I saw a girl playing house of the dead 4.. Not a hot chick.. but she is good playing at it.. Then end up at starbucks for coffee and go to look at Mont Blanc for pens.. Too expensive!!

In the end go back due my mum making noise.. Tired but enjoy my day.. ^^!!

Haaaa end week study @ LIncoln..

The first week kinda bored nothing much to learn.. This is the 1st class I experience semi uni life.. Somehow very depressing which I AM THE ONLY CHINESE BREED THERE!!!!!! *Sigh*

At 1st I used to the atmosfere due I always hang out at TARc but somehow I am back to study life.. 8 months from Jan and starts at 1 till 5.20 pm and got many replacement class due to our calender have many public holidays. If there are replacement class, so it will be starting at 8 am till 12.20pm.. then continue for the 2nd class!!! Worst!!! =.=!!!

Now it is the 1st step to achieve my goals of life, and 2nd I'll be leaving to Russia for 6 years and planning to come back once in a year.. I have so many plans and now going through one by one and slowly grab my life where it should belong.. I don't want to stray away just because I think life is never made simple!! By the way On early August to 2nd week Sept is my departure time...

Will I able to step out? Hard to answer that but I must do it to make it a dream to accomplish.. So back to the story, in this college I am studying now is somehow boring but still a process of knowlegde.. For this past few weeks, I give myself a thought that I must be my usual self where I don't want to waste my time rotting for not doing anything like I waste my time during F6.. This is my second chance to make it out..

In this college I found my way back and something happen all the way ever since a week ago.. First I am the most lousy in this class but except math!! No idea why I must study Advance maths which is similar to F6 math but more crazier in terms of solving.. At 1st I thought it was easy but $$@!#%^&-=%.. The reason is because it is a combination of pure, applied, and mechanics maths... Grrrr!!!!! When study the theory it was damn easy but when come to problem solving, it is a butt kiss goodnite.. Since it is my 1st ASSIGNMENT, it took me a day to solve that crappy question... So damn confusing!!! @.@!!!

The other subjects in my course is Human anatomy, Further bio (?????), Chemistry (same to F6), Physics (no idea what for I study??), Russia language, and MORAL!!!!!!!!!!!! PUI!!!!! Hmm the study atmosfere, somehow lonely dude but manage to get to know 2 girls and 2 boys.. But not so close since I wasn't there for the orientation week.. *sigh*

For most class, I become a sacrificial goat to solve some weird examples.. So damn depressing.. Who would imagine red hair with 5 piercings be the friends with other classmates??? Except some people who ask me whether pain or not I pierce so many!! And to make more alienated atmosfere, most boys got pierce at most 3.. ME? hahaha most weird of me that I can say...

Anyways the lecturers are nice to me and the management staff as well.. HEHE!! Most of them love to chat and make the situation so damn funny.. I can't describe but best you experience for yourself.. Who says eccentric can't do humor and who says normal people can't join the fun?! But without them.. Bored for the 4 hours 20 minutes...

Somehow most nites I couldn't online due got lots of things I need to refer to the net for general knowlegde and problem solving.. By the way, Happy Belated birthday dugong!!! I couldnt celebrate your birthday due busy with life.. And to everyone, HKL, my best friends David Teh, Suman, Naveen, Fitri, Sean wong, Edwin, Kang, Ivan, Aswin, and whoever names I din't mention good luck for achieving the best..

HkL Big mummy birthday boy!!!!

Here is a kickoff...
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you kok kok bear!!!!!!
Make wish birthday boy!!!! Muahahahaha...
Happy 20 year old naughty boy!!!!