New Year Resolution 2010

1st of all, I pretty don't talk much about new year resolution because to me its no point to have a resolution if I don't make it true, or even bother trying to make it happen..

But still, I got 2 resolution, which is the same for almost every year and practically going for it!

1. Study and study to be a doctor. ( My own dreams to be one)
2. Improving myself no matter how it would be. ( Need to improve in attitude wise)

So this is my only to resolution throughout 15 years for able to think for my own goal, not my parents decide or so but my own decision when I was 5.

Thus, I try to make my own resolution on thing I have to accomplish, its a dream for everyone to accomplish it by doing it, and not by talking with no actions! Well perhaps not many really into new year resolution, It's just a hot stuff turn cold easily ( unless person with high enthusiasm its differ for 'em)

For me its true that I had alot of resolution every year, but only 1 still my main resolution and probably the same for everyone, which is to be a person.. So, to put it simply I just focus that suppose to do and keep it til I successfully become one, though last year I had my ups and down, failures and victories, but still, I will move on..

Lately, I manage to control most of my own temper, not fully though... Just to make my mind clear about it, I try to smile eventhough I am boiling with anger, I try to walk away when I am angry, I try to think when I am angry( most probably to control myself from just blurting out nonsense from my mouth),. I work it out somehow.. Need more time to control attitude wise., Plenty of error need to be corrected and best of all, I put alot of effort to change myself since last year I guess, try to be better as always.. ^.^

Well my last resolution, (maybe) I want to be a person who can really spend time with family as my father once said to me, to be a father must study and experience the true potential of becoming a person, basically, study to be a father.. I really miss my family back home in Malaysia, so I have to do what ever it takes for me to go home and be a successful man in my own way.

Today is 31st of December 2009 presents a gift and Tomorrow is 1st of January 2010 presents a mystery..

Few more days to go for holiday!!!!

For past two weeks, I got myself into alot of exams, I sleep less than 3 to 4 hours, yesterday I din't sleep at all, seriously, I might shorten my lifespan pretty quickly now, Everything moves into pace now, I am now couldn't make my own decision sill, on whether I should fight till the very last or go and relax.. Nothing is easy but not that hard, I for now only aim to pass my 1st year eventhough I have to face hardship everyday, making notes, doing hometask so on and forth.

For now I just need to bear til next week until I sit for my exams to get my credit for my final test in second sem.. The days drawing close for me to get back to sunny Malaysia..

I can't wait for some miracle..

Today I played my game well, basketball it is.. Somehow I dream of doing the imposible, but yeah I try it out, of course it is hard to do in reality rather in dream, silly me.. Since that, I overstressed my body and brain of mine, now having headache and body aching, so must do a lil' of practice to make it perfect.
Another thing, its getting chilly in Russia.. I couldn't even sweat with my comforter on.. I have to stand this extreme weather till next year, its like almost 4 months of cold.. Ahhh, to think off, Genting now its like nothing compare to the chillness here..
To make things imposible of imagining, I getting rusty on my Muay Thai.. I couldn't swing for moon kick and the croco.. Need to do something bout it before my body getting rusty..
Oh yeah, I currently playing 2 songs, one is the more than words and another is cant take my eyes off.. Hahaha.. It is hard to play without my teacher to guide me.. But well, practice more if I don't have talent, as saying hardwork override talent.. So learning 2 of 'em, I going take my time. If I got no exams and holidays, I'll definately practice..
Coming here, make me realise of my past self which I couldn't do, So now I make full of my life devoted to anything that I could learn base on time have given to me..

Well Don't give up and never give up.. Never even give thought of it..

My 1st year 1st sem

Lately, I begin to understand how is life in Moscow, to be precise in RSMU, it wasn't easy or simple.. To start with one the 1st day tll now, if in academics wise, its pure mental torture, memorize, read read read, and exam if not collogium( important for credit test and major test and its like another test!!!) so basically test test test.
During form 6 I could sleep for hours long, but now, sometimes 2 or 3 hours period of sleeping. Got eyebags and headache.. Seriously, I think school days are still having leisure time while in univercity is for some serious deal with education.. Really stressful if couldn't pass the test and if manage to get distinction, its pure effort with luck.
Learning medicine degree is not an easy peasy task for undergrads to be one, and to be one must go through to many obstacles.
Lately I couldn't get my feelings right, yeah I had to fall for someone, I dreamt of her for past 2 nights.. and yet I got my exam for that 2 days.. Luckily I manage to pass.. I keep reminding myseif not to give up and never give up especially getting me ready for exams or sports, cause I'll know once if I give up, I'll fall and maybe couldn't take my chance anymore.
Sometimes, I just couldn't predict what's next for me. I just being blinded of stressness. Keep getting headaches..Hope it doesn't affect my health and studies. Yeah, thanks to that, my cough gets back as well having slight fever.. It take me a month to heal and yeah few days to fall sick again..
And about the girl I fall for.. A taiwanese girl, not that pretty and not that hot, but who ask me to make bet and lose the bet without money, yeah yeah in the end, I fall for her.. Though she din't notice that much since I couldn't show any affection for her.. Well, I just keep this myself, I wanna feel more heartache till affection is gone and maintain my cold self.. I seriously afraid I might get hurt again no matter how tough I can be since I am really weak mentality..
2 weeks left til new year holiday.. I hope I could last til the very last of me.. There is nothing but time, what I left now is time itself for me to accelerate..

The 1st years to perform..

Yesterday, it is good to see how people goes in the motion.. game is the name.. it wasn't a good day for me.. I couldn't perform well at my game.. But at least wasn't last for it. This show I still got many place for improvements, though I know I suck but I couldn't give reasons for me to fall as well, I gotta climb from my mistakes and make it as experience.. This part goes to everyone in the 1st years, from my point of view, everyone is good, and definately better at their games, we manage to won in footsal, but not all sports we can make it through, we got last..

This goes that, I've lose my bet to a girl as well.. becoming her slave for a week, a day have past, 6 days to go.. All the joy have driven to exams tomorrow. Kinda sad thinking of it.. I really start to get bored on exams.. All is I wanna to pass and not aiming distinction.

Somehow, the fun past by short, but everyday is laughter itself, I just can't see what is ahead of me.. But just waiting for it to come by..