Everybody gets wet...

Welcome to Templer's park.. So today is cool pool day..
What the heck? 12 pm.. Freezy water....




Ok the surroundings is up for you to imagine... And now

Yeah water is freezy I know that... Now The stunt show!

So this is all what we are fooling around....

Looking for cures part 1

Code: Depression.....
Title: Bleeding from the inside.
Start: Where should I go next?
Places: Everywhere in Selangor or anywhere...



So today after my papers.. Which is General paper one.... Finish within an hour an sleep for an hour..
Next stop, my car.... I quickly walk to my car eventhough the bell haven't ring.. I don't care rattan hit my ass from Mr Lim the disiplinary master... I get into my car, start and dash.. ( I hate waiting in long car ques especially at peak hour.. I drove fast but not fast like not even touch 110kmh at highways and 80 at normal highways.. So I drove to KL the city which known for crappy jams.. So not cool for me to chill around instead making me headache.. SO EXCESS DENIED!!!!!!!!

Next stop.. Petaling jaya... Holly cow.. So boring... I saw my parents cleaning their store but I dint tell them that I going to drive elsewhere... So NEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ahhh so good.. I now at Subang and Sunway... I went round and round passing Naveen and Suman's house... And got bored.. So drove all the way to Sunway Spk... Round also but..... NEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Next stop.. Genting Highlands... I never thought of going there... But well hey.. It is my first time going there after all I am a fully passed driver licence... So pass the Toll? What the heck........ Rm5.00........................ AND IT IS ONE GO ONLY AND THAT MEANS GOING BACK WILL BE RM10.00 AND IS IS DOUBLED....... HOLLY COW!!!!! Well I don't care though since it is my temptation of getting a cure... So drive all the way there and it is ridiculusly time consuming journey and since I plan to get home by 5 so no choice it seems...
The sky looks dark and drizzling.. So I drove and maintain at 90kmh... And finally the reach the small turning.. Turn in and woah... Going up and up and up... Reach to the cable car... Then took a breeze... Get back into the car as the rain coming soon and drove all the way down... No need of hitting the gas and accelerate... Just brakes... Going up was taking time but going down is rather fast... And then... Continue a long stretch of road and going back to my place and head forward to Rawang..... And it is the last and LAST PIT STOP!!!!!!!

So Templer's park... No one is there and can say only a little people is there.. I changed my uniform into somesay a punk with piercings and black Shirt with jeans... So then hike up a lil and reach to a destination called the waterfall... The water pool is so deep and refreshing.. I take my sweet time resting there.. The natural beauty and all living things are such beauty to be amazed but not the monkeys or baboons there.. Why I say so? They stole my car keys and quickly climb on the tree... I was like stunned.. It reached my tight pocket... and stole my keys... But serve them rite... They fall into the pool with my keys... Wahahaha... Action time...

Anthony: Come here you belittle devils.....
~Reaching to them... Swimming but no keys at their hands...
~Which means.. The key is in the pool...
All the time I thought I walk home but I manage to get the keys with my legs soaked... Aww~ So continue soaking my legs... So I keep looking in the pool.. Holding the ring I took and keep looking and staring into it.. Then some reflection of my deary beloved is on the wavery pool.. I have so many thoughts.. Wheter I threw it or I shouldn't... But Guess what... I didn't threw it because... I love her and finally I come to my sense that I'll keep it as my precious item that belong to her... Eventhough how many times I call her stupid or I hate you but still doesn't change a fact that I still love her and always do.. I don't wish things to be ended just like that... Now we are friends doesn't mean I couldn't be back with her as long there are ways of becoming a better person.. I personally say no matter how hurtful things may end up, still it is now or never be able to understand each other.. Like someone said to me.. Be best of friends and understand each other and that time is the best pair of couple... So I will continue to pursue and wait for her eventhough how long it takes me.. So now I am convinced myself that I no longer a boy nor a man but in the middle of it... Hence this place is my favourite spot to chill and relax when there are less people on the weekdays... So this place where I can be happy and sooth myself... I wonder are there anymore great spots like this... I'll upload pics of this place where I normally go and best of all it is near my housing area.. (Not that near as you think as a walking distance).. Well then goodbye~~!






P.S this will be few of the last that I'll blog about myself... And the rest of my lives is up for all of us to dream and imagine...

Back for the moment...

Anyway back to blog but not that frequently this time.. Reason....
1st I basically so stressful that my life never been that simple.
2nd @.@ I don't know what is happening anymore.. I just so confused....
3rd There is a night I could not sleep due crying on some event..
4th Then exam is putting me under stress and I am having PIMPLES!!!!!!!!! due restless night..
5th Practically I am having much fun then last year because someone have come into my life eventhough many unexpected event happens...

Devil Anthony: HEy! You there...

Lookin at my mirror....

Hey you answer me you fool... You Shouldn't revise.. Go play and act your usual way.. Hit the walls, do kick boxing as you do everyday, increase your agility boy and eat MORE!!!!!

Angellic: Who are you to pestering him ##$@!!@#%&^%^& HE should maintain his joker image and keep studying to become a respected man... His parents is already at boiling peak.. So you shouldnt listen to that idiot...

Devil: Who are you referring you load of crappy shit... take that you cheapshot.. He is build to be tough... He doesn't born with weakness but he only didn't take care when he was young.. So now it is the time for him to enhance his body strength.. So that he will be fearless when against some gangster... And most important he can defence for himself at crucial times.. His parents is only care for their image not his...

Angellic: Oh shut up.. This is the era where no more brutes and wild fire or even mass killing.. It is peace you fool... You boy, listen up.. Study study study and listen to your parents and people whom you care.. Not this silly Devilzzz... X rated sucker and useless trash..

*no longer listens to the 2 sides..

Me: Shut up both of you.. You are a part of me.. Reaper and Joker.. I don't care who takes or control me.. I don't care when I'll be gone and lifeless.. So before that could even happen.. I'll make myself who I should be.. I want to be a fully grown man.. Not silly childish pester remarks of you 2... I want to create my life where bound to no rules and death sheath... I decide my life eventhough I cheated death... I don't mind I am a liar or against any wills of mine.. As long I breathe on the land, on this earth itself, with my hands, legs and brain of mine... I am going to live...

*sudden silence...

Both: We understand you.. Since we are pasts bounded to you doesnt mean that we are pestering your life but because we don't want you be the victim of becoming a society trash.. We are you and you are us.. We will aid you when come times of trouble... As you said we have limbs to make our fate and alter to better... Til we meet in dreams again someday....

*Silence once again..
Sit and stare at the ceiling room on the bed....
I guess there is more than expectation... No matter what happens.. I'll live and live for reasons...
Since that day, I was thinking whether I am crazy or not imagining things when so bored but I realise that.. I am starting to understand myself better.. I may not be that good person or a well being but non the less.. I will learn as I move...

Stop!!!

Because I couldn't, well what actually I am thinking was there are to much of mind mind thinking off right now.. I basically wanna put off my thoughts away for the moment, so I will be stop blogging for the time being.. i have to settle my exams 1st.. After that I may reconsider to blog back when everything are clear off.. I currently can't focus cause everytime I look upon my time is always making me anxious hath of exam.. I couldn't think that why and how I keep reminding myself I have to forget everything and maybe I will be gone off in everyone's sight.. So I guess it is time for me to disappear into my own world where I myself understand more than anything else.. I can't probably be so nice but I will be serious and keep my composure... Time to be strict to my own life and be very persistent to deny now.. I now want to lock myself in my own shadow and let time eat me up until the day I able to overshadow myself.. So goodbye to everything I have seen and goodbye to all my friends.. I will keep in touch with you guys whenever I settle with my life.. I will be going to strike my own dreams and keep it alive.. So long and have a nice life and enjoy while everyone can.. BYE~~~~ HAHA....

Nothing out of the blue..

Fairly today, hmm, I just couldn't help by keeping myself away from playing lately.. Rather doing maths like some nutcracker jackass.. So I play computer.. And today it is so boring and my phone bills are somehow very low still.. Somehow miss that ringtone whenever my dear send to me.. I guess can't be help since she is busy with her and I got exam on my hands.. I am really so tired and easily worn out during the day.. But at night somehow triggers my expectation to be very cunning and shivering in my own rooms doing maths or playing Dota.. But mostly is doing maths.. So many equations and methods of solving each given task.. I suddenly realise there is many ways but always saught the usual answer solving method since more safer than the others.. When I keep doing maths is like keep thinking what will happen next.. After this then what? After maths, I usually go play games then yawning like crazy.. Can even yawn~ until my eyes turns red.. haha.. I still feel the time ticking slowly moving from a pace to the another.. Time flies fast? It seems it is.. In a blink of an eye is past few minutes and closing to sleep is like few hours... Then is the other day.. I can't tell how much days left for me to get my life where it suppose to be.. Not sitting the same spot for years and even hours daily.. I want to get out and get out to see new places and foods.. Argh.. So many good foods is out there and I miss some limited ones.. Haha.. Then I miss holding my basket ball and my racket.. My speed has been decrease... So so damn.. But nevermind.. I have to bear it till after my exam anyways.... Dear I miss you lots and lots.. And I ll be seeing my old primary schoolmates whom I lost contact of them...

Everyone is tired.

Yesterday is a very tiring day. I woke up at midnight and doing my maths up til 5am.. Shortly after that I fetch my sis to school.. Then drove all the way back home with heavy head and sleepy eyes.. I ran to my room and fall onto my bed... Time went by so fast, it already 11 by the time I woke up and see my handphone and a reminder of my dad's birthday.. haha.. So go to my tuition room, having my class up til 1.30pm.. I quickly run to take quick bath and cash in my wallet. Then drove to school to fetch my sis to tuition.. After that I go take a quick nap up until my parents back home at about 5.. So I head down with my sleepy head, asking my dad go out have dinner.. He said he was tired.. Then he went to toilet.. My mum ask me why today heading out, and I told her it was our Daddy's birthday... Then I told her how can you forget? Hahah.. She said she didn't even know about it since she got heavy workload and stressful.. I couldn't say much.. So my mum hurriedly go to take bath.. Then I and my mum go out since it is time to fetch my sis.. I send my mum to her hair saloon and I go pick my sis up.. I am worn out even only driving.. Then go back home to check on my dad.. He slept in the astro room.. What the heck? Then again I drove out with my sis at my side to my mum's place.. As I reach, my mum also down in her slumber.. Hey is everyone so sleepy? After done her sessions, drove down to my housing area to buy food back home.. After our dinner, only me and my sis watching 8tv for this program at 8.30 pm.. Soon after that my sis took her bath and lay flat on her bed.. Left is me who stay up till 1 and finally gone down to bed.. Weird eh.. So many fall asleep very quickly except me.. I wonder why though... haha couldn't go out with my dad... Still got next time though hahaha...

My primary days..

Currently to many things have already begun to move.. Well I guess it is time for me to go on.. I am still haunted by my past where I can never return to the person whom I once known.. The person I fell in to her at the very moment I saw her.. Even now I can understand where is my limitation.. Even how hard I try to tell myself that she better off with someone better than me.. Eventhough I know that there are times I realise that no matter what I do is just a fading memory which meant to remember rather than I put back into pieces of my life.. Now I am with my dear.. Someone is so dear to me.. I can't see behind anymore but to move on since my past had already go on with her life and so should I as well.. This is the other past of mine, person whom I know was a friend of mine who become the traitor.. But it can't be blame since I am the person who started the ruckes 1st.. I should have let him to take over my place of being one of the gangs before.. As far as I remember he hit me with a chair on my way home.. Eventhough the bruises in not so apparent , I don't mind getting hit since I can't even lay a punch onto him.. I at that moment gave a thought that this is my last time being in the gang.. So why not let him hitting me and he takes my place.. I realise that I involve lots of rubbish in my past.. I fought with a person who is 2 times my size.. Funny thing is after one on one fight, end up as pals with equivalent strength.. Funny as it seems... Since my place was taken I haven't get into fights anymore for past 8 years... Since my parents call me to study, I care less into mixing with them anymore.. Then I even remember bits of my primary school life where I always running around in my school, get caught, smack by a teacher and cried in the toilet.. It is so funny the way I remember.. I even remember I cried on my first day of school.. I even cheated my maths by using calculator... That when I was year 1 and in the last class.. When I was in year 2, i got myself into 2nd class.. haha.. I even can finish up my maths work in the class within a minute after a long long exercise.. To be honest I suck at language but good at calculation... I even met Suman who apparently same class with me and end up as best pal.. We always talking in the class since we are always the first finish up our maths way faster than anyone could imagine.. Always the first to pass up our gruesome teacher Pn.Lin... At the end, I and Suman got separated in year 3.. He end up in the afternoon session in the first class.. Me? haha Suppose in the first class but end up in the morning session.. Same last class after all... My mother said it is the best I go in the morning session where I won't be a trouble to get picked up from school as there was school bus taking me home.. Haha, I am the only chinese boy in the school where only 2 or 3 chinese gal whom I can't even remember.. Once again meet up Suman in year 4 at 1st class... Hahaha.. He is all rounder now.. Always in the top 10.. Me? haha as I said I suck at language but that time good at science and maths only.. So typical... That year itself I got to much health problems.. I got more frequent asma attack, due to that I got sick so easily due on heavy dose of medication... When there is a blackout.. I will tend to suffocate faster no matter at day or night... My parents were to worried and take me to traditional medication.. Eventhough I couldn't heal my asma but I felt so much better than before.. Haha.. Well back to school life... Hmm I couldn't remember when I met patrick who is a pain in everyone's ass even the discipline teacher and counsilor can't even bugde him.. haha.. I still remember him that he always cheat my money up for his use to buy gameboy and so so.. Before I forgot, I meet Fitri in year 4.. But we go separate classes since then... Patrick was in 3rd, Fitri was in 2nd and well me and suman always in the 1st class.. Reason? haha we got the same tuition ever since we was in year 2 or 3 perhaps but doesn't matter since I am so damn lazy to study.. Well practically in year 5 is so damn normal and boring... I even got smack by a pain in the ass teacher by the name Mohan who taught maths in year5.. Such a torment being with the lamest teacher in my life... Then in year 6.. Wow everything change.. Suman is a prefect.. Meet new kid in our class, David Teh.. Ahh I currently want to find this fatty chump ass since got no idea where this dude when after he shifted to Damansara and even lost his contact.. Then with him around, I played badminton with him all the whole year with Suman who currently a Mssd player.. Me? I represent KL.. hahaha.. But never got into qualification since I got no stamina and strength.. But who cares anyway.. My parents don't give a damn about my sports eventhough my dad encourage me to play badminton first.. so many stupid things that we 3 do during our time.. And at recess Me, Suman, Taneselan, Fitri and of course David always foolish around and goofing at the whole school.. I almost forget, Tanaselan, Viknenthan, Ruganaraja, Partiban and Suman are the Indians I know so far.. They are the one always around.. Until Viknenthan shifted to Rawang and became a gangster.. He got very high rep there.. Haha.. Naveen also was in my school before but in year 1 only.. Then he shifted school.. All of us heading to new school which is SMK Kepong ulu.. Then there everything start to change.. Even my life change as well.. Such memories I have until now... Hahahahaha... I will continue my past in another time.. Cause my life became another person when I was in Secondary school..

The pressure is increasing

Here is the question. When you are not ready, what do you feel? If I were to me, it is so damn pressuring.. Argh.. The burden of something is upon me, on my shoulders.. There is so many things that need to be done besides my studies... So damsel in distress.. My head is filling up with utter nonsense and now more thing need to be refined. And now I have to sort out each damn nonsense in my brain and go through one by one.. IF not, I will be condamne in my whole life. Why such happen when I don't even want it to happen... Sheesh but nevermind, I sure to solve it before anything worst that going to happen on me onwards.. En Garde stupid traitorious scum...