Entitle.. Hope!

This days, well it give me desire to understand things happening around lately. Take a turn and make some ideas for some improvement. Today, I got some good questions regarding on my anatomy exams... Though I know I might flunk this exam due I am easily nervous and forget because of it. But then, no matter how cruel things can be, I still have to face it (Its a part to be more mature to think and adapt to stressful abilities without being moody or in bad temper), I thank to people who is around me, if not because of them, I might already lose faith and passion, ( Ted, Ching and Lulu) getting spirit and going to the extreme, pushing myself to limitation of my mentality, I can sleep dayless just by studying and playing at the same time, its a habit and bad one though, but it is uni life, expect the worst and prepare for the worst, life ain't a bed of roses or answer popping out in front of you, people who work hard for it earns it and people who stops will fall, no matter in sense of cheating or doing it by heart as l0ng there's struggle and thirst of knowledge nothing is impossible to attain it, being hardworking is good but have no life, being smart is good but lack of responsiblity( includes laziness), so human must have both, smart and hardworking, I used to tell that myself everyday, thats the reason for me to move on in education, I'll not stop until i believe I can walk with knowledge especially becoming a doctor.

Another thing, I learn as well, I must not be to selfish to share my knowledge to people who wants it.. Though i know I'm sure that i am unable to do well if I keep teaching during exams since I have my own questions to do as well, I am envious when I manage to help my classmates to get good remarks but I couldn't get mine.. Sad isn't it? But I must not give up, I know I can get it as well as long I am able to understand question and do things quickly with great thinking and precision eventhough helping them as well in the same time.. I take them as my training to improve my brain works and I know I will improve myself to be better, as you know be a doctor can be stressful if attain less training and experience in study life? I finally understood path to be a doctor, to save people must save your own and with experience during study life everything is possibble and more probably better than normal general doctors in hospital back in Malaysia.

Another thing, I learn, though I may be scary at times, as long I don't cause trouble, everything will be fine.. I wanna have a good life without picking trouble.. And some people misunderstand one thing, I learn martial arts is only few things, first of all, I can use for mind relaxation, learning to cultivate attitude, self protection and my family, and most important of all is to make good exercise out of straineous training..

Last of all, I want to have someone who truly understands and be mirror to me, besides my loving sister, hahahaha.. ( bet this gonna chill her spine) p.s. sorry for waiting me at the corridor when I was talking to your classmates and during watching movie with my roommates and playing Dota in front of you ( this is for the person who is in Russia, not my sister!) My sister is waiting to get handphone with a greedy smile on her face thats for sure including laptop.. Patience and relax, I definately work hard to obtain all my credits and come home with a smile!! I wonder how are my family back in Malaysia, hope they are doing fine especially my sis, don't go banging on the car's butt when you drive!! HAHAHAHA!!!!

Lets go!

Many things happen lately, as well growing fond of someone, But well here's a story,

Last Friday, which is the new year term holiday until to upcoming Monday which will be on the 11th will have collogium for Anatomy which will be tough to memorize and understand as well, So this holiday, what I am doing? Well read sleep eat memorize like idiot and growing fond towards a girl.. Oh man.... Anyways, few days to go, and I need to read russian and rememorize Anatomy...
I have a promise made to my sis which I must fullfil so I can't afford to lose.

For now I having alot of thoughts where are few challenges to be over with, I hope I could finish this obstacles so that lesser doubts in my mind to be settle with. 10 days have passed, and yet I in crossroads of my life. For few days passed, I still couldn't find my own true self, somehow lost in midst of characteristics...

But something good happen, I manage to play more than words on guitar.. Kinda amazed though.. Next song would be hmm, no idea..

Anyways, this is for now...

A few days vain.

Back on the track for the 2010 prick of the year, guess what?
I am bored to death!!!! Ok!
First of call, copying and studying notes is seriously dead boring!!
Second of all, its to cold outside, hands and foot are numb, body shivering, funny thing of all, my face colour is the same, no red blushing...
Third, during playing Dota to kill boredom, someone just have to disturb me, in return I accidently call her pig... Sorry I din't mean it....I am bad if come to sweet talks.. Ain't my style to court girls..
Fourth, because of that punish myself to copy her notes til 5.30 in the morning, done and get a bath to chill..

Thus, I have 2 notes to read.. I am so dizzy!!!

Argh 6 more days to do exams!!! Gotto to study and memorize like mad!!!
I must not give up!! Few more and I am off to Malaysia!!!