Looking for cures part 1

Code: Depression.....
Title: Bleeding from the inside.
Start: Where should I go next?
Places: Everywhere in Selangor or anywhere...



So today after my papers.. Which is General paper one.... Finish within an hour an sleep for an hour..
Next stop, my car.... I quickly walk to my car eventhough the bell haven't ring.. I don't care rattan hit my ass from Mr Lim the disiplinary master... I get into my car, start and dash.. ( I hate waiting in long car ques especially at peak hour.. I drove fast but not fast like not even touch 110kmh at highways and 80 at normal highways.. So I drove to KL the city which known for crappy jams.. So not cool for me to chill around instead making me headache.. SO EXCESS DENIED!!!!!!!!

Next stop.. Petaling jaya... Holly cow.. So boring... I saw my parents cleaning their store but I dint tell them that I going to drive elsewhere... So NEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ahhh so good.. I now at Subang and Sunway... I went round and round passing Naveen and Suman's house... And got bored.. So drove all the way to Sunway Spk... Round also but..... NEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Next stop.. Genting Highlands... I never thought of going there... But well hey.. It is my first time going there after all I am a fully passed driver licence... So pass the Toll? What the heck........ Rm5.00........................ AND IT IS ONE GO ONLY AND THAT MEANS GOING BACK WILL BE RM10.00 AND IS IS DOUBLED....... HOLLY COW!!!!! Well I don't care though since it is my temptation of getting a cure... So drive all the way there and it is ridiculusly time consuming journey and since I plan to get home by 5 so no choice it seems...
The sky looks dark and drizzling.. So I drove and maintain at 90kmh... And finally the reach the small turning.. Turn in and woah... Going up and up and up... Reach to the cable car... Then took a breeze... Get back into the car as the rain coming soon and drove all the way down... No need of hitting the gas and accelerate... Just brakes... Going up was taking time but going down is rather fast... And then... Continue a long stretch of road and going back to my place and head forward to Rawang..... And it is the last and LAST PIT STOP!!!!!!!

So Templer's park... No one is there and can say only a little people is there.. I changed my uniform into somesay a punk with piercings and black Shirt with jeans... So then hike up a lil and reach to a destination called the waterfall... The water pool is so deep and refreshing.. I take my sweet time resting there.. The natural beauty and all living things are such beauty to be amazed but not the monkeys or baboons there.. Why I say so? They stole my car keys and quickly climb on the tree... I was like stunned.. It reached my tight pocket... and stole my keys... But serve them rite... They fall into the pool with my keys... Wahahaha... Action time...

Anthony: Come here you belittle devils.....
~Reaching to them... Swimming but no keys at their hands...
~Which means.. The key is in the pool...
All the time I thought I walk home but I manage to get the keys with my legs soaked... Aww~ So continue soaking my legs... So I keep looking in the pool.. Holding the ring I took and keep looking and staring into it.. Then some reflection of my deary beloved is on the wavery pool.. I have so many thoughts.. Wheter I threw it or I shouldn't... But Guess what... I didn't threw it because... I love her and finally I come to my sense that I'll keep it as my precious item that belong to her... Eventhough how many times I call her stupid or I hate you but still doesn't change a fact that I still love her and always do.. I don't wish things to be ended just like that... Now we are friends doesn't mean I couldn't be back with her as long there are ways of becoming a better person.. I personally say no matter how hurtful things may end up, still it is now or never be able to understand each other.. Like someone said to me.. Be best of friends and understand each other and that time is the best pair of couple... So I will continue to pursue and wait for her eventhough how long it takes me.. So now I am convinced myself that I no longer a boy nor a man but in the middle of it... Hence this place is my favourite spot to chill and relax when there are less people on the weekdays... So this place where I can be happy and sooth myself... I wonder are there anymore great spots like this... I'll upload pics of this place where I normally go and best of all it is near my housing area.. (Not that near as you think as a walking distance).. Well then goodbye~~!






P.S this will be few of the last that I'll blog about myself... And the rest of my lives is up for all of us to dream and imagine...

Back for the moment...

Anyway back to blog but not that frequently this time.. Reason....
1st I basically so stressful that my life never been that simple.
2nd @.@ I don't know what is happening anymore.. I just so confused....
3rd There is a night I could not sleep due crying on some event..
4th Then exam is putting me under stress and I am having PIMPLES!!!!!!!!! due restless night..
5th Practically I am having much fun then last year because someone have come into my life eventhough many unexpected event happens...

Devil Anthony: HEy! You there...

Lookin at my mirror....

Hey you answer me you fool... You Shouldn't revise.. Go play and act your usual way.. Hit the walls, do kick boxing as you do everyday, increase your agility boy and eat MORE!!!!!

Angellic: Who are you to pestering him ##$@!!@#%&^%^& HE should maintain his joker image and keep studying to become a respected man... His parents is already at boiling peak.. So you shouldnt listen to that idiot...

Devil: Who are you referring you load of crappy shit... take that you cheapshot.. He is build to be tough... He doesn't born with weakness but he only didn't take care when he was young.. So now it is the time for him to enhance his body strength.. So that he will be fearless when against some gangster... And most important he can defence for himself at crucial times.. His parents is only care for their image not his...

Angellic: Oh shut up.. This is the era where no more brutes and wild fire or even mass killing.. It is peace you fool... You boy, listen up.. Study study study and listen to your parents and people whom you care.. Not this silly Devilzzz... X rated sucker and useless trash..

*no longer listens to the 2 sides..

Me: Shut up both of you.. You are a part of me.. Reaper and Joker.. I don't care who takes or control me.. I don't care when I'll be gone and lifeless.. So before that could even happen.. I'll make myself who I should be.. I want to be a fully grown man.. Not silly childish pester remarks of you 2... I want to create my life where bound to no rules and death sheath... I decide my life eventhough I cheated death... I don't mind I am a liar or against any wills of mine.. As long I breathe on the land, on this earth itself, with my hands, legs and brain of mine... I am going to live...

*sudden silence...

Both: We understand you.. Since we are pasts bounded to you doesnt mean that we are pestering your life but because we don't want you be the victim of becoming a society trash.. We are you and you are us.. We will aid you when come times of trouble... As you said we have limbs to make our fate and alter to better... Til we meet in dreams again someday....

*Silence once again..
Sit and stare at the ceiling room on the bed....
I guess there is more than expectation... No matter what happens.. I'll live and live for reasons...
Since that day, I was thinking whether I am crazy or not imagining things when so bored but I realise that.. I am starting to understand myself better.. I may not be that good person or a well being but non the less.. I will learn as I move...

Stop!!!

Because I couldn't, well what actually I am thinking was there are to much of mind mind thinking off right now.. I basically wanna put off my thoughts away for the moment, so I will be stop blogging for the time being.. i have to settle my exams 1st.. After that I may reconsider to blog back when everything are clear off.. I currently can't focus cause everytime I look upon my time is always making me anxious hath of exam.. I couldn't think that why and how I keep reminding myself I have to forget everything and maybe I will be gone off in everyone's sight.. So I guess it is time for me to disappear into my own world where I myself understand more than anything else.. I can't probably be so nice but I will be serious and keep my composure... Time to be strict to my own life and be very persistent to deny now.. I now want to lock myself in my own shadow and let time eat me up until the day I able to overshadow myself.. So goodbye to everything I have seen and goodbye to all my friends.. I will keep in touch with you guys whenever I settle with my life.. I will be going to strike my own dreams and keep it alive.. So long and have a nice life and enjoy while everyone can.. BYE~~~~ HAHA....